Fear sneaks its way into my mind and heart in such innocent ways.
A small nudge here, a whisper over there and soon I stand petrified to walk any further.
I have a big decision to make.
Its a decision that I have been anticipating for awhile
but one that brings about a lot of change for me and for my two boys.
There are a lot of unknowns in this decision.
I will be choosing to let go of things that are comfortable and safe for an unfamiliar path.
As this decision becomes more of a reality,
I am coming face to face with the fear that is taking up residency in my heart.
Here's where fear really gets me.
I'm a rational thinker.
I think through decisions, way the risk, and asses the outcome.
I like the decisions where I can pretty much predict the result.
Often times this process produces very healthy decisions that
produce healthy outcomes for me and my family.
"Courage does not follow rutted pathways."
I stumbled across this quote a few years ago and have often thought on its simple truth.
Living life wholeheartedly means embracing life with a courageous spirit.
It means living not in fear but embracing the bumps, ruts,
and sometimes dark shadows life brings our ways.
I have been challenged this week by the question...
"What would you choose if fear was not a part of the decision?"
If fear was out of the equation...
I'd jump in with both feet and experience it with all of my heart.
I would take the steps into the rutted and bumpy path rather than stay where its safe.
I would live the adventure with joy and I would rest in peace knowing I am right where I'm suppose to be, not dependent on myself but rather dependent upon the One who created me, knows the number of hairs on my head, and has promised me "beauty for ashes."
"I prayed to the Lord and He answered me,
freeing me from all my fears.
Those who look to him for help
will be radiant with joy;
No shadow of shame will darken their faces."
So once again, I'm breaking up with fear. I've done it before and I'm sure I'll do it again.